A few weeks back I took advantage of the 60 degree weather and wore this dress I've had for almost a year. I just needed a little courage to trot about the city in it. The warm weather did the trick. happy thursday! xo, kim
Callie girl and I have been enjoying every last snow flake this winter. Watching this girl romp, play and eat snow with such gusto has made me appreciate winter all over again. My girl is going for knee surgery early tomorrow morning. I hate her being out of commission, especially during her favorite season, but I am looking forward to better days. Longer walks, exploring in the woods, jumping on the bed and chasing snow balls will be in the somewhat near future. Until then the girl and I will hunker down while she recuperates. And after six weeks of carrying her up and down from the second floor to let her out, I will be jacked! Maybe I need to design some forging projects for spring...
This was our last morning stroll for a while. I am grateful it was so picture perfect. happy winter! xo, kim [+ Callie too!]
This year is the year of new adventures. For all too long I have put off my list of things to try. I had been going through the motions of life instead of living life. I am ready to live my life and discover new things that make me happy. Trying some things on my list may cause me to fall on my face [literally] while others I may succeed at and others I may just fail at. But I am determined to discover what the outcome will be. Even failing is better then never knowing.
First on the list is learning to skate. This is something I have wanted to do since I was 15. [Let's not count how long I have wanting to do this.] My first time even standing on a skateboard happened this past autumn and I pushed it around pretty well. I have an awesome teacher who bought me this board and the two of us have been pushing around a little over the past few days.
Yesterday I had my first spill. It was right after I was told if you lean this way you while trying to raise your front wheels you will fall and put your wrist out to brake your fall and it will hurt. I leaned, I fell, I put my wrist out, I laughed, got up and tried it again. I have some marks to prove it but I like it that way, it proves that I tried something new and now I know I can fall, get up and try again. Now, I need to get on with my goal of trying something new in the studio. I may get burnt or melt my experiment into a molten mess of silver but I am going to try, learn from my mistakes and find my own success. xo, kim
I am not a fan of resolutions. A new year can't change your life overnight and really, there is too much out of one's control to be able to plan for this new year to be the best one yet. It is a grim outlook but I can't handle having any more of my hopes and dreams crushed. All of the changes I have been through over the past fews months have taught me that I am the only person I can rely on. My life is in my hands and only my hands. Yes, I have family and friends I can rely on, this I know. They have been there time after time to pick me up every time I have fallen down, tripped or stumbled. But in the end I am the only person who can make my life mine.
This is my new outlook. I am the one who will build my dreams and forge ahead into my future creating the foundation on which these dreams will come true. I will leave my comfort zone, try things I have never done before, finding my way out of my cozy cave and into the world ready to take in fresh air and really live and breathe. Of course I have a little list of things I want to do this year. I always have a list of goals at home, in the studio, in my head, typed on my phone. Those lists won't disappear, but those lists won't beat me up. They will not haunt me if I can't manage to get them done in a specific time frame. Because if I live off a list, I don't feel like I am really living. I will train to be able to run a 5K, whether I get to the end of the program I am not certain but I will start. I will find a job and a rhythm to my life that I enjoy. Maybe that job is my business, maybe it is being a barista. And I will open an online shop to sell my photographs. When, I don't know but I do know I will get there. Like I said, this is my new outlook. I woke up on New Year's day angry at the world for all of the bits of my former life left unresolved. All of the details that really aren't in my control nearly brought me to tears when I realized another year of my life went by without me really living.
I guess I do have a resolution after all. I resolve to live. I resolve not hold myself to impossible standards which consume me and leave me feeling like a failure. I resolve to trust in myself that I will make my dreams come true, reach my goals and enjoy every step I take getting there.